“Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.” – Ephesians 4:31-32 (KJV)
This verse laid heavy on my heart today. With every trial I have endured, I have continued to grow spiritually. God has touched my heart with this verse and applies to me more than any time in my life.
I was informed this morning that a guy that was once dear to me passed away this week. No one is sure of when he passed, but he was found this morning. I never thought I would feel any sadness for him. I pretended to act like it didn’t have an affect on me. All of a sudden, it hit me. He was a part of my life and I did care about him at one point.
He was once my boyfriend many years ago. We did not see eye to eye as our relationship ended. As time went by, I never spoke to him again because I felt so much resentment towards him and had no intention on forgiving him at all. The next thing I know, he’s gone.
Although he was not the best boyfriend to me by any means, that should not have prevented me from expressing my forgiveness to him. I feel guilty that I never sent him a message simply saying, “I’m sorry. Are we cool?” I truly believe he would have said yes.
If you sit there thinking that you have every chance in the world to forgive someone, you are terribly mistaken. I will never have that chance to express what I have wanted to say for years. Ryan, I forgive you. I am sorry I did not say this to you sooner.
This is a life lesson I will never forget. Forgive those that have wronged you because bitterness will continue to dig a deeper hole into your heart.
There is no time and no need to wait, guys. Let live and let it go.
I now feel peace within my heart. That’s all I have to say about that.